Queen's Speech #1

Since ending my year-long blog project, "The Story Of One Year," I have made several attempts to start blogging again. First I tried a themed blog, called "Messy Little Raindrops," which was supposed to be documenting my search for love and all the "messy little raindrops" that come along with it. This blog wound up with a total of seven or eight posts in total before I tossed it aside completely. It was a good idea but I feel like it was a bit too niche to keep my attention long-term, not to mention the fact that I have wound up giving up on the whole idea of "searching" for love. I have come to the realization that love is something that you can't really go searching for - you just have to find it when you find it. The second blog I attempted was called "Beauty In The Mirror," which was meant to be the start of my online beauty empire. It was meant to be a blog to correlate with my YouTube makeup tutorial and product review videos. The issue was the fact that I didn't have any makeup tutorial or product review videos at the time and didn't want to start filming any because the lighting in my house at the time was so bad. I have since moved but have yet to figure out the lighting in my new house, as I have been really pre-occupied ever since the move. I didn't wind up making a single post in that blog. Then came the weird micro-blog sort of deal, also known as Tumblr. Tumblr, I quickly realized, is not really a place to maintain an actual, full-length blog. It was more a place to post pictures and try to interact with other users and such... like Twitter but bigger. Tumblr is still a lot of fun to dick around with but it isn't the answer to my blogging needs. So, I have for the past couple of months just been leaving the blogosphere alone...

...but I still felt the need to express my thoughts and feelings and put it out into the world.

That's what brings me to this. Starting from scratch. I have learned from my past blogging experiences that a regimen of some sort is good for me. So, I have decided not to do a daily blog but a 3-days-a-week blog. I figure that 3 blogs every week is manageable. I can definitely handle that. Some weeks it will likely be more often, depending on what's going on, but I am vowing for it to never be less than that.

So, where does this new blog begin?

Well, I suppose I'll start with the title of this blog. Quite simply, as with many things in my life, it all stems from a Lady Gaga song. As anybody who knows me knows by now, I am a HUGE fan of Lady Gaga's. She has yet to release any music that I have not absolutely loved. On her recently released masterpiece of an album, entitled "Born This Way," there is a track that connected with me perhaps more than any previous track from Gaga, called "The Queen." The chorus of this song has become my personal anthem and mantra, "I can be the queen that's inside of me, This is my chance to release it, be brave for you, you'll see, I can be the queen you need me to be, This is my chance to be the dance I've dreamed, it's happening, I can be the queen." That is kind of the perfect description of how I feel in life right now. I know that there is a queen inside of me; a strong, powerful queen who is ready to lead. I have always felt that this was my place in this world - there is a kingdom, or queendom, full of people in this world that I was meant to lead. When I say lead, I don't mean that I am meant to lay down the law or tell them what to do or anything of that nature. What I mean is that I am meant to incite emotion in them and inspire them to go out and do greater things than they would have otherwise. It is my job and my pre-destined mission in this life to be an inspiration to others. I am at a place in my life now where it is finally time for this "prophecy" to be put into play. I know that I have it in me. I know that I can do it...

I can be the queen.